i am soooooo done with football. i do not want to play any more. every practice makes it worse and worse to the point, now, i dont even enjoy the games any more. the whole varsity thing is cool and all but now its just draining me. between home work and football i barely get any time to do anything. i know i said last week that i was having fun but now it is a whole new story. i truely can not wait till its over. since i have to practice i am trying my best to have fun so i am going to make the best of it. of course i am going to play next year but this year is done for me. i am physicaly and mentally exausted as of now...



this week i did not take all that many snaps but when i did i had a lot of fun doing it.i think it when i dont play i dont like practice. i am starting to hell of miss junior varsity. i had so much more fun in the lower level than i am now. the only thing better about playing on varsity are better people. i liked how on junior varsity i was actualy needed compared to now because they would not even care if left. that has it's perks but mainly it is bad. like i kind of want to put forth a lot of effort so i can do something FOR the team. but as of now i can not really say that i have done anything for them or to help them. and this causes me not to feel like part of the team. i know people are satisfied with this but i just hate this feeling. i am almost worth less to them. like just a body. i feel like the guys who should not even be out there. not fun :(