i am soooooo done with football. i do not want to play any more. every practice makes it worse and worse to the point, now, i dont even enjoy the games any more. the whole varsity thing is cool and all but now its just draining me. between home work and football i barely get any time to do anything. i know i said last week that i was having fun but now it is a whole new story. i truely can not wait till its over. since i have to practice i am trying my best to have fun so i am going to make the best of it. of course i am going to play next year but this year is done for me. i am physicaly and mentally exausted as of now...



this week i did not take all that many snaps but when i did i had a lot of fun doing it.i think it when i dont play i dont like practice. i am starting to hell of miss junior varsity. i had so much more fun in the lower level than i am now. the only thing better about playing on varsity are better people. i liked how on junior varsity i was actualy needed compared to now because they would not even care if left. that has it's perks but mainly it is bad. like i kind of want to put forth a lot of effort so i can do something FOR the team. but as of now i can not really say that i have done anything for them or to help them. and this causes me not to feel like part of the team. i know people are satisfied with this but i just hate this feeling. i am almost worth less to them. like just a body. i feel like the guys who should not even be out there. not fun :(

Varsity.

i got pulled up to varsity dude. i am siked about this good event. i am happy cause this stuff is hell of crazy. i love being up on the varsity football team instead junior varsity. it has a lot of perks and some down falls in my experiences. but suprisingly it is actually has been mostly good shit thats been going down. it is very suprising that this week has been full of great things.

Good stuff. i have a lot of good varsity events that i can talk about. i like how it is hell of fun and of course extremely serious when it needs to be. also i have grown to respect a lot the upper classmen on the team A WHOLE LOT more. like for example qias and emilio. when the thing went down on tuesday with mr reynoylds and this jerk that came to the feild. when it went down quis and emilio did the best thing that could have been done to help my man reynolds. i was too scared to act upon the thing that was happening but they just confronted the scary event like it did not matter. i love them. i wish i could have been like them. also another good thing was that it is my last and only possiblchance that i could be able to play with him. this year was hella cool because me and jerms have become hella close and he is like my idol now. i love that fool. im glad i get to spend hella time with him learning what i can do to be as raw as him.

the bad stuff. jerms... i hate getting smacked by jerms yu. dont gt me wrong, i love playing with him and i want to be just like him when i am a senior, but jeez! that shit hurts like nothing else. i do not get mad because he is just trying to get me tougher for the future years with out him. to an extent i appriciate it. lol. crazy huh.